Just Some Resentment

If you were working for me, I'd have fired you a long time ago. Lucky for you. And unlucky for the rest of us. Oh, you're a nice enough guy. You do damned good work, when you actually make it to work. Your problem is that you falsify your time card. Everyone knows it and has known it for years. YEARS! It is only within the last 1/4 year that concrete evidence has been gathered that you are, indeed, stealing from the company. And make no mistake, stealing is what you are doing. Tabulating hours on your time sheet that you did not work is no different than walking into the finance department and taking money out of petty cash. It's the same fucking thing. And it's a pretty damned douche-baggy thing to do.

There many reasons to resent you that stem from this. The people you work closely with resent you because you aren't at work during critical times to fulfill your role, leaving them to scramble and do the work they have to do as well as yours. Then there's the whole resentment from your co-workers thinking you are getting preferential treatment when they know your mutual boss KNOWS you are being a douche bag by your thievery and allowing you to stay on. There are those who resent you for slapping them in the face with your actions because of the kindness they have shown you in the past. When you were facing a severe family crisis and had no vacation hours, many of your friends and co-workers (myself included) donated to you some of our hard-earned time off so you could get along with what you had to do. But I guess it wasn't enough. But fuck all that shit. That's not why I resent you.

I resent you because I have to spend almost two hours every week this year of 2008 acting like Big Brother. A prospect I have feared my entire career because of some of the nature of what I do has a security aspect to it. I have remained, for the most part, unscathed by this dubious distinction. No longer. I feel like shit every time I have to pull up your keycard data. I feel like shit every time I go into your profile and pull up your time cards. I feel like shit every time I troll through the security camera video, watching for your vehicle to enter and egress the facility. And I feel like major shit after I have cross-referenced all of this data and realize what a goddamned thief you are. What the fuck is wrong with you? You KNOW I am watching you and yet you continue to steal time! Do you think you won't get caught? You've already been told you have been caught! That's what I don't understand, dude. You've been given chance after chance after chance and you STILL keep it up! You may as well whip out your pecker and piss in our faces. You'd probably get a better reaction from that.

It doesn't matter to me that your boss won't do anything about it until the point of no forgiveness has been reached. I achieved a relative peace toward the situation a while back. I am not he. As I said previously, if I were him, I would have kicked your sorry ass out the fucking door a long time ago as I feel that point was breached two years previous. Your actions have caused disharmony among those you work with for far too long, not to mention the embezzlement angle. Be thankful your boss is more forgiving than I but I must tell you . . . even he is getting fed up with your bullshit. The writing is on the wall and has been shown to you on numerous occasions. I believe that if you don't take heed this time around and do what that writing says, you will be looking for another job. And no one will be sad when you are gone. The person we grew to care for left the building years ago.